I’m not usually sentimental, or a deep thinker. I don’t listen to my heart and allow myself to think, feel and be. I tend to be one to push through, carry on, and use will power to make things happen. But that’s changing. I’m learning to slow down, let myself think and feel. I’m allowing myself to be weak and seek God in my lowest and in my need. I’m seeing more who I truly am, who God made me to be and how much I need Him. Continue reading “Mother’s Day – Joy in Sorrow”
I miss my baby boy. He was due to be born today. But he won’t be. I did get to hold him this past November, but not nearly long enough. And I will never again get to hold him on this earth. I miss that… A lot. Continue reading “My Baby…”
What next?
Such a hard question and yet an important one as well. How can we step into the next season of life if we don’t ask this question? And how do we evaluate what that next step should be? How do I think about what I want and also what God wants for me and from me? How do those work together? Continue reading “What Next?”
I feel so burdened for my children. Loosing these baby boys has been hard on me, but my children, too feel it. They were excited about having a new baby join our family and it was something we excitedly talked about on a daily basis. We still talk about the boys almost on a daily basis and I’m glad they talk. Continue reading “How Do I Help My Children with Their Grief?”
What does every day look like? It’s different. I hope it changes. I know it all won’t go away, but I want it to get a bit better. Grief is still so close to the surface. Someone can just say something kind or show they care and the tears will well up in my eyes. Sometimes I want to sit and do nothing. Other times I’m so restless that I can’t sit still, but I don’t want to do anything. I want something to do or think about that can get me out of thinking about this life right now, but it takes too much energy. I want to sleep. I want to be warm. I want friends around me. Continue reading “Every Day”
O come, let us sing unto the Lord : let us make a joyful noise to the rock of our salvation. Let us come before his presence with thanksgiving, and make a joyful noise unto him with psalms. For the Lord is a great God.
Psalm 95:1-3a
Over that last few weeks I’ve been trying to think of a verse that would be good to have as my focus for this year. A verse that would acknowledge my place in life, but also point me to God and what I’m called to do no matter what life throws at me. Continue reading “My New Year Theme”
It’s hard to believe it’s been a year. But it also seems like eternity as well. Today as we celebrate and grieve our little boy I think of all the milestones I’ve missed. I’ve missed the first smile, the first coos, giggles, and belly laughs. I didn’t get to count the first teeth, the first rolls, playing with toys, learning to crawl and then the little toddles and first steps. I have thought about these things over the last year and not a day has gone by that I don’t think about him. Continue reading “Happy 1st Birthday Avi”
I know my posts lately haven’t been the most joyful, especially as most seek to ‘enjoy the Christmas season’. But with the comments and feedback that I’ve received from those around me, I am more aware of trial and grief this year than ever before. I’m usually one to find the silver lining in all the clouds and I still do, as much as I can, but there is also a time to know your feelings. Feel the grief, sadness, difficulty and let it be there. Continue reading “Grief at Christmas”
Merry Christmas from the Mintz Family,
This has been a very full year for us! I hardly know where to start! We have had lots of time at home, time with extended family, a few local and out of state car trips, field trips, trips to the pool, birthdays, picnics, concerts, plays, a few trips into Washington DC. and lots of other fun activities! In March Brian and I took a weekend away from the kiddos and went to a marriage retreat which was a special time together to focus on us. It was close by and the kids were with Mom and Dad, but it was the first time we had been away from all the kids since Xanthie was born 2 years ago! We also had a car trip to Nashville to visit Breanne and her family which was probably the highlight of our summer. It was such a special time with her and she was a fantastic host and had all kinds of things to do. We were on the go… and in the kitchen all week! Continue reading “Family Christmas Letter”
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Striving to preserve what we have graciously been given.
Striving to preserve what we have graciously been given.
Green & Grateful 