RC Sproul 1939 – 2017

RC Sproul went to be with Jesus on December 14, 2017. There is much celebration in heaven at his arrival. This man was a renowned theologian in the Reformed world. He will be greatly missed by many. His way with people and teaching touched the hearts and souls of many. He had a way of presenting difficulty theological truths in a simple way that could be easily understood and convicting at the same time. Continue reading “RC Sproul 1939 – 2017”

Sinus Infection

Hopefully spring is here and winter sickness and sniffles are on their way out! So maybe this post should be held until fall… but then, I thought… sometimes seasonal allergies can linger and progress into a sinus infection. So I figured I’d better arm you now before the seasonal allergy season starts, so that you can know what to do to help ward off an infection! Continue reading “Sinus Infection”

Though You Slay Me

I’ve been having a pitty party lately. It’s spring and there is new life everywhere. Last week four friends announced new pregnancies to me. I love these Mamas and I love these little ones just conceived. I’m sad for me. I want that to be me. But it’s not.

There is an emptiness. I miss two boys, but I also feel like there are little people missing from our family. Tears fall as I wonder what is the meaning of it all. Why the pain? Why the uncertainty? Why me? What did I do wrong? What am I not doing right?

I love working at the birth center. I love seeing newborns enter the world. I love hearing their first cry. I love seeing a mother fall in love at first sight and a proud papa standing behind his wife and new baby. My heart sings at the beauty and my heart also cries at the yearning within. What did they do right?

I’ve been playing this song over and over lately and letting the words sink in to my soul. I need this truth. It all feels like it is no good. It’s meaningless. It feels like there is no purpose. Do I listen to my feelings or what God says is true?

“Though You Slay Me” (featuring John Piper) from Desiring God on Vimeo.

I come, God, I come
I return to the Lord

Where else can I turn? Who else do I have to run to?

The one who’s broken
The one who’s torn me apart
You strike down to bind me up
You say you do it all in love
That I might know you in your suffering

But why does it have to be this way? I don’t like being broken, weak and hurting. Why such deep pain and loss? I don’t understand this love.

Though you slay me
Yet I will praise you
Though you take from me
I will bless your name
Though you ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need

I sing… I sing through tears. I sing on my knees. I sing to God who holds me whether I want to recognize it or not.

My heart and flesh may fail
The earth below give way
But with my eyes, with my eyes I’ll see the Lord
Lifted high on that day
Behold, the Lamb that was slain
And I’ll know every tear was worth it all

He keeps all my tears. He has them numbered. He cries with me.

Though you slay me
Yet I will praise you
Though you take from me
I will bless your name

It’s so hard to praise Him and bless His name when He takes from me. But I WILL. I trust my Father who gives and takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord.

Though you ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need
Though tonight I’m crying out
Let this cup pass from me now
You’re still more than I need
You’re enough for me
You’re enough for me

{John Piper}
[Not only is all your affliction momentary, not only is all your affliction light in comparison to eternity and the glory there. But all of it is totally meaningful. Every millisecond of your pain, from the fallen nature or fallen man, every millisecond of your misery in the path of obedience is producing a peculiar glory you will get because of that.

I don’t care if it was cancer or criticism. I don’t care if it was slander or sickness. It wasn’t meaningless. It’s doing something! It’s not meaningless. Of course you can’t see what it’s doing. Don’t look to what is seen.

When your mom dies, when your kid dies, when you’ve got cancer at 40, when a car careens into the sidewalk and takes her out, don’t say, “That’s meaningless!” It’s not. It’s working for you an eternal weight of glory.

Therefore, therefore, do not lose heart. But take these truths and day by day focus on them. Preach them to yourself every morning. Get alone with God and preach his word into your mind until your heart sings with confidence that you are new and cared for.]

Though you slay me
Yet I will praise you
Though you take from me
I will bless your name
Though you ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need.

He is all I need.  I need to spend more time at His feet.  Meditating on Him.  Seeking Him.  Finding ALL I need in Him.  I may not ever know the meaning on this earth, but I can know it isn’t all meaningless.  There is a purpose and a plan.  I can rest in His embrace.

Mother’s Day – Joy in Sorrow

I’m not usually sentimental, or a deep thinker. I don’t listen to my heart and allow myself to think, feel and be. I tend to be one to push through, carry on, and use will power to make things happen. But that’s changing. I’m learning to slow down, let myself think and feel. I’m allowing myself to be weak and seek God in my lowest and in my need. I’m seeing more who I truly am, who God made me to be and how much I need Him. Continue reading “Mother’s Day – Joy in Sorrow”

Happy Birthday America

I can easily grow accustom to this ole land and take for granted the freedom I have and it’s great cost.  There is really something special about seeing our grand ole flag and hearing the Star Spangled Banner. Pride and love swells in my heart for this land and it’s people. I’m forever grateful for the life God has given me and the land in which I live!  There are few days that I think about how blessed I am and this is one of those days.  It isn’t often enough that I stop and look at what I have and see what others don’t have all around the world and bow my knee and thank God for his goodness to me. Continue reading “Happy Birthday America”

A Glorious Easter to You!

I originally intended to post this on Easter Sunday and then completely forgot.  It was written and ready to post…  I didn’t want to scrap it and thought it was still good to share; even though it is quite a bit after Easter.

It’s so easy to get caught up in the here and now;  To be overwhelmed or underwhelmed with life and all it has to offer or all it has to loose.  Life is hard and it can seem like a dark and hopeless place, full of sorrow, trial, difficulty and work.  And I’m sorry to say… but it is.  However,… if we didn’t have hard times, if we didn’t have loss, if we didn’t have sorrow, if we didn’t have needs why would we need a Savior.  This world would be the best place there is, utopia, and there wouldn’t be a need for anything better. Continue reading “A Glorious Easter to You!”

Happy Thanksgiving

I just wanted to post a short and sweet note to wish you a special day filled with joy, thankfulness and family!

I know some of you may not be able to spend the day with loved ones who are far away or who are no long with you in this world. As Believers we can be thankful that one day… on That Day… we will meet again. Those loved ones will be in our arms and embraces once again!

I pray that your day is special and filled with joy!

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Independence Day

Enjoy this day of celebrating our Nations birthday! Have fun with your family and friends, enjoy good food, watch fantastic firework displays and rejoice in our freedom. Also, remember the cost of that freedom that our forefathers paid and the many families through the ages who have paid with the high, high cost of life. Men and woman have died so that we can enjoy this freedom and watch our fireworks in peace and safety. Many are still fighting… Remember the cost and thank a military service man or woman for their sacrifice.

Happy 4th of July!

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CSA Week #3

Another week of veggies has come and time for more ideas and recipes for our ingredients! I hope this last week has treated you well! 

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Here are the veggies and some ideas I had of how to use them this week! As always I’d love to hear what you are planning to do with them too!

Beet Tops – I gave some recipes on this last week, but if you don’t have the email or need the recipes then check out my recent blog post that has the same recipes! Last week I cut them up and added them to our kale salad and they were great. I also made a salad with only beet tops and it’s wasn’t that great of a hit. They weren’t super crisp by the time I served them and I think that was more the ‘concern’ from my young voting contingent (think 3-6 year olds). Crisp/crunch factor is important to them!


Lettuce – I don’t think any of us really need instructions on how to use lettuce and I think we are all quite familiar with it! This lettuce though, I must say is perfect for tuna salad wraps or egg salad wraps or hamburger wraps if you are gluten or grain free! Even my kids enjoy eating it this way! We’ve had LOTS of salad last week, so I think the kids are ready for a new method of eating greens this week!

Bok ChoySweet and spicy Asian pork shoulder is by far our favorite way of eating bok choy! It adds so much to the dish! This dish also doesn’t taste like a typical crock pot dish and is one of our preferred “guest” or “company” dishes. It’s easy, allergy friendly, simple and always a huge hit! We also saute it over high heat with a little lard and salt and pepper, sometimes garlic and onions as well! MMMmmmm!!!

Spinach – Another ingredient that doesn’t need much instruction, but definitely a huge favorite here! A few days ago I made a quick recipe with beans, pork, balsamic vinegar and mustard and served that hot over a bed of spinach. I’ve got to type up the recipe yet, but that will be posted on the blog before too long. Sorry I don’t have the exact recipe finished yet. If you are interested, email me and I can probably email you the ingredient list, otherwise stay tuned to the blog!

Kohlrabi – I can’t say I’ve ever cooked with this, but I’m super intrigued! I’d definitely love to know what you’ve done with it! In my reading and research I’ve found that before cooking or eating raw it does need to be peeled because the outer skin is tough. I’m thinking of trying this recipe from Nom Nom Paleo of just pealing, slicing and tossing raw with olive oil, lemon juice sat and pepper. Brian also found this recipe for fries that looks interesting as well!

Blueberries – Mmmm… just cold, wet and in a bowl please! That is exactly how Xanthie likes them and so do the rest of us! That was dessert for tonight! I will often go to a blueberry farm close to my Mom and pick LARGE amounts and freeze them for later use each summer. One of my favorite recipes is Brittany’s hypoallergenic blueberry coffee cake from Real Sustinance. It calls for cherries but I always use blueberries and it turns out fantastic!



Sugar Snap Peas – These are a favorite raw here as well with a bit of hummus or just some salt and olive oil. The kids frequently ask for them ‘because they are sweeter than your other veggies, Mama!” They say! Thankfully they see them as a treat! Crazy kids! I also like to add them to a quick stir fry or fried rice. If you are grain free I have a fantastic recipe for using cauliflower instead of rice that is delish!

Broccoli Leaves – I’m not 100% that is what these leaves are, but I’m 99% sure! 😉 Another great set of greens to boost iron and calcium! Eat up! I found this recipe for stuffed broccoli leaves which looks yummy, and may give it a try. And then there is this recipe!!! Watch the video below for another great way to have these nutritious greens and for a good laugh! Take a guess where he is from… I don’t know and a 30 second investigation came up with nothing!!! Check it out!

So there you have it! Another week of veggies!